Cover of track Update by sim
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sim, Update

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So for those of you who follow me, you may have noticed that I had a mental breakdown this morning. I believe it is time for me to address this as it is a fairly common occurrence with me.

Let's get right into it: I have SEVERE depression and struggle on a daily basis with suicidal thoughts and self-hatred. This gets amplified early in the morning for reasons I'm sure you all understand.

I take serotonin and norepenephrine precursor supplements, which help, but obviously don't fix the underlying causes. I've been checked and it turns out I have a monoamine deficiency, which means my body has a hard time making the above neurotransmitters, and because I'm an internet sadboi, I stay home in my room 24/7. This is obviously not a good combination.

I've told all my irl "friends" what's going on but only one of them seems to care. Really the only people I have left are you guys.

Lately I've been developing social anxeity and my reasons for not leaving the house are changing. This is not a good sign, as things can only go downhill from here :/

So, in the next few weeks, I will force myself to socialize and will try to make new friends so I can be sane while I'm away from the internet, so sorry if i go inactive (but we all know that's probably gonna fail lmao).

If worst comes to worst, I'll have the suicide prevention hotline and 911 on standby.

Thanks for understanding.

<3 you all

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    Infinite Music

    about 3 years ago

    Damn... That touched me right home, I'll be praying 4 u

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    sim

    about 3 years ago

    ok?

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    jvcxb

    about 3 years ago

    ok

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    Efolu

    about 3 years ago
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    Efolu

    about 3 years ago

    Just remember man, suicide doesnt only affect you, it will affect all of us around you, and for those who care such as fam and friends.

    Just stay strong my dude.

    We all want you here :)

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    Efolu

    about 3 years ago

    Hey man.

    I understand your troubles. I personally havent had this sort of problem happen to me, but i have seen it happen to someone else in my very eyes.

    And that scared the living shit outta me.

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    jc.

    about 3 years ago

    im crying

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    aiden

    about 3 years ago

    prayin for u

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    Zerod

    about 3 years ago

    rip sauce

    we luv u

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    vudumagic

    about 3 years ago

    <3 <3 <3

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    solir

    about 3 years ago

    i just hope everything gets better for you man. :)

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    drew White Medium Star on

    about 3 years ago

    Fr tho get better. I will pray :)

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    drew White Medium Star on

    about 3 years ago

    Dont worry ill dox you and find you and we will be best friends xD

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    looks

    about 3 years ago

    i hope that one friend sticks with you and helps you through it :)

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    looks

    about 3 years ago

    you're my only source of well-mastered at music :(((

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