"I just wanted today to be good...

just once.

just one birthday where everything didn't feel heavy.

I thought the movies would make everyone smile.

I thought... I thought it would fix things.

And now I'm sitting here in the smoke,

listening to everything fall apart,

and all I can think is that I did this.

If I hadn't asked to come here...

If I hadn't begged them to go...

They'd still be alive.

I should've pulled them out.

I should've been stronger.

Why wasn't I enough?

Why couldn't I save them?

Why did it have to be my birthday?

I didn't mean for any of this to happen.

I didn't mean for any of it.

What have I done..."