I have been noticing that my life has been getting rather stale and boring, not much to do. As a result, I've been going bolder, behaving differently, trying things out. I've been eating foods I previously rejected, I've been forcing myself to overcome random fears, and that's not all. Usually I'm the experimentalist, testing to rules of the universe, trying to find how certain things work, and see if there are any patterns wherever there's numbers or something that can be represented numerically. Something like this shouldn't be out of the ordinary for me. However, it's different. Rather than analyzing the world like I usually do, I'm breaking my own structure and definition, rewriting who I am. This may have something to do with becoming mature, as I am 18 years old, which a lot of medical databases and textbooks and stuff say is still within the age range that development occurs.

Interestingly, I'm also trying to somewhat separate myself from the definition of humanity, in reaction to everything that's been happening lately. Nonsense wars, political drama, misinformed protests that escalate into primal pre-civilization hostility, addictions to short videos of AI-generated suicide-encouraging challenges, and more. I do not want to associate myself with any of it. There are only two paths I can take regarding this, either I say most people aren't human at all, or I call myself and several others superhuman for not being braindead. Lately I've been finding a lot of things that horrify me, things that almost literally every person on the planet do that are so horrible that I am not even sure why we're never warned about this in school and warned to never become part of at all costs. I've been realizing things about humanity that would at least partially justify any sort of purposeful artificial Armageddon. At this rate, AI would never take over the world, and if it did then it wouldn't be out of it being evil. But of course, humans are God's creations, necessitating decorruption in lieu of deletion.