ode to the beautiful

i wanted to cry for what never was felt before and wanted to die for everything else your crossing the threshold sent over an armament so what was your end goal? i never could tell you're not my protector, you're not some damn higher-up even with your magic effervescent glow i wanted to ask you if you had felt bad for it so what was your answer? i never did know i want all my friends to forget i exist again i wanna be somewhere ill never be seen i wanna be cleared of my every embarrassment i wanna be sterile, i wanna be clean