i love you all

yeah i havent been posting music (obviously)

and well, honestly

ive been burnt out mentally

working on so many drafts

sleep schedule having a mind of its own

but ive also noticed that whenever that happens

it has always been because ive been taking life too seriously

i care and worry too much for my own good

whether i show that or not

about myself and others (mainly others)

as well as over contemplating on what i think i should and shouldnt do over and over again

this sort of "put down" forcefulness, if that makes any sense.

to be honest i dont regret feeling that way in those moments

those had to happen i believe

for me to realize the "unessacaryness" of those feelings

to force or bury those thoughts or feelings away

actually adds to those thoughts and feelings ironically

you just gotta let them exist until they decide not to anymore, as difficult as that may feel to accomplish

"the more weight you put on yourself, the harder it is to move"