backpedal

beginning text - "Yeah! I am in fact very disappointed... [in myself and everything] Just like you! I cannot be happy, I cannot be enthusiastic for jackshit, though that would be indeed selfish and entitled of me to [want to] be anyways. BUT---at least I can [smile] even if it does not look that convincing! So here I am! [Smiling!] Yeah! ... What a day." - end text