<- dissociate ->

i learn to be away from the wackiness of the internet, im in my own zone, my own reclusive spot everyone has something to complain about, something to win over about its all so tiresome its not so different irl forget drama, forget the stupid strawmanning, forget the condensending and morally righteous, forget trying to feel guilty for every single thing you do forget all of that its stupid man.. everyone's just fighting and trying to white knight each other and im tired of it all even the ones who try to act better still hold that condesending/morally righteous worldview everyone wants to be right, everyone wants to call each other names we only have one life man why waste it on arguing with strangers, just focus on your own merits why worry about who'll judge you just... do your things, no matter how much you feel it aint worth doing so its all so tiresome and no the world is not a better place without social media, the world's ALWAYS been messed up and ALWAYS filled with equally messed up people. its just the internet only showed that in 2000x speed! i dont care how much you miss the "good ol days" cause it sure wasn't the good ol days for a sizeable chunk of the other world im just why man... is wanting to be known even worth it i'd rather commit a 32M+ worded loud house fanfic and spend my life overly obsessing over my favorite franchises alone or with a trusted friend whilst also focusing on achieving my irl career goals like i dont know how people can just... sit on a computer and argue with people you'll never even meet irl, like- at all! i hate confrontation, i hate anger, i hate strawmans i hate people who try to prove themselves right and shun everyone who doesn't agree with everything they say i hate politics, i hate fabrication, i hate sensationalism, i hate all of it and i just wanna dissociate and live in my ideal world while handling and making it through my real one i dont know when i'll ever commit to being my "true self", but i think there's never a true self. just me.