i wish...

I wish I acted first I wish I didn't wait I wish I was more sure of it I wish it happened that way •I wish I didn't hurt you I wish I didn't break your trust I wish I had known I wish that's how the story went -I looked at you and saw the world I looked at you and realized I had been homesick I looked into your eyes and saw what we could be: happy together, hilarious together, and strong together... But that's not what happened •I looked at you and saw brokenness that needed to be healed I looked at you and realized you needed someone to be there for you I looked into your eyes and saw what we could be: broken together, then healed together, and walking together. But that's not what happened -I didn't act first, and then it became too late You went to another, and my heart broke We weren't even together, and my world shattered when you took another My feeling of home crushed And that's exactly what happened •I did things against you without realizing what I was doing, and it became too late I broke your trust too many times, and your heart too many times I hurt you worse than death ever could And that's exactly what happened I wish I could've known, I wish I acted first, I wish I was better I wish... (heres the full post on insta if you want it: https://www.instagram.com/p/BV81_EnB57_/?taken-by=vulk_dubb_howze )