I dont think I will ever work on this further. Might have been the lowest point when I made this. But I know that it wasnt rock bottom yet. That will still come.
it is still there when I cradle myself again, shaking and feeling hopeless, becoming a ball as my fight/flight goes crazy. And feeling so overwhelmed. Its part of me. If I wasnt this weak...
i can relate too hard. i've attempted twice and i regret hurting others with my decisions, but on the other hand, there's this constant loneliness that just envelopes me and makes me feel less human. it physically hurts not knowing what's next to come. i'm really really sorry that you're going through this, too.
I thought about something similar, if I was ever to get a serious disease that would slowly chip away off me with no hopes of recovering, Id rather selfishly take my life and death in my own hands and do the rest myself. Not going to suffer physically if its hopeless anyways.
tbh idk if i'll feel normal or as happy as one should be so i just said fuck it it's who i am. i also said if im on the streets i'll end it quick. still debating that one. homeless to me means that no one cares.
I feel this. I’m in exactly the same position, attempting twice and regretting hurting those around me. Anyone else experiencing this I sincerely feel for you
I dont want to terrify anybody, nor am I trying to justify self harm or anything, but here is something my brain told me during one night: "This is an endless fall, the void does not have a bottom. The fall from a bridge has a bottom, an end." Its never been an option for me, I have never taken it as one, but things sometimes just feel so hopeless and empty.
you suck
And look where I am
This december was so hard for me. I guess the feeling never really left.
i can relate too hard. i've attempted twice and i regret hurting others with my decisions, but on the other hand, there's this constant loneliness that just envelopes me and makes me feel less human. it physically hurts not knowing what's next to come. i'm really really sorry that you're going through this, too.
this track shouldnt exist, Im sorry.
damn.
i can tell that this is inspired by xavi
I dont want to terrify anybody, nor am I trying to justify self harm or anything, but here is something my brain told me during one night: "This is an endless fall, the void does not have a bottom. The fall from a bridge has a bottom, an end." Its never been an option for me, I have never taken it as one, but things sometimes just feel so hopeless and empty.
bro... this track, these comments, hittin me hard