It wont always be this way

it's just an anomaly I will try to be better it's not every day that someone flat out calls me stupid I don't like to fight, I'm not that quick with my words so I'll comply untill I die I can chip away at myself again again and again I'd rather do that then question why why does it not feel good for me you had no control, I was just a punching bag you would say, I was wrong, and blame it all on impulse and it was, all my fault, I couldn't understand that words had no meaning I was always subject to change, to blame for everything that made me me, I was not adequate, feelings don't matter when things can get better, for you to feel better for a single day for a single day you sent me away mmmm I was gonna do it anyway it's always a hoe phase wow you're gonna go and get laid turn around and don't crawl back to me I'd rather set myself ablaze it's always a hoe phase wow actually go and get laid I don't care if you feel empty I told you what words meant to me