its been a long 3 months. life has pretty much been a blur. my mentality has felt almost sideways. ive been fighting a stressful war, and for the longest time, i felt like i was losing. i felt like i had no hope left, as if ive let the situation at hand beat me. i still sit down and wonder if i should move on or not. but ive very recently realized that, in reality, the war isnt truly over. while it may not feel like it, there are battles that are still being fought. i still have hope. i can still win this. i can win my feelings back. i can win my confidence back. i can win my happiness back. i dont know exactly how ill win it, and honestly it still feels like theres no reason to continue. but deep down, i feel like theres a purpose to all of this. there was a reason as to why all of this took the path it did. maybe me waiting was a good thing. maybe i wasnt ready. maybe they werent ready. maybe we both will never be ready... but i need to do something, i need to take action. maybe not right this minute, but one day, ill take the step. i will conquer my stress. i will conquer my doubts. i will win, i will be triumphant. something will happen. it may be good, it may be bad. but whatever happens, itll be for the greater good of both of us.
i present you, triumph, the last track off my apprehension ep. this one was to feel as if it were telling the story of a long fought war. epic, monumental, bombastic. this has been a mental war that has corrupted my mind for months now. all the guilt, shame, depression, stress, sadness, loneliness, assumptions, doubts, it will all come to an end.
thank you all for listening. its surreal to finally have this out, hope you guys are satisfied with this entire ep!
also recommend listening all the way through. its pretty long, but designed to tell a story. itll enhance the experience (i hope).