sad vibes

dont judge me too hard with the delivery, im not good...lol lyrics: i can't find the words to describe how i feel life without u just doesn't feel real every night i lay in my bed letting memories of what i said haunt me in every single way now i lay here thinking what to say knowing we won't ever speak again babe i just want to tell you... i love you we used to hang out almost every day did shit that we're taking to our graves then outta nowhere we parted ways that sent me down a spiraling craze now i know it was all a fucking lie couldn't care less if i dropped and died and that realization will always make me cry never thought we'd say our final goodbye Been trying to drink away the sadness That i feel Something i swore id never do But how else can I forget you? just wanna die doesn't matter why u fell for another guy i caught u red handed you thought it was splendid til u realized u were on the same account shared between u and i I can't find the words to describe what i need As i make my arms bleed The greed takes over me My life doesn't matter There's no need So let me just go on and eat I've gained a lot of weight I even lost my job Always showed up late Was too busy sob- Bing Never wore bling Something i admired We never could sing Yet we did it til we tired Fuck I'll never forget you How could i? As our bond grew We never could see eye to eye Yeah We knew how to fuck Yeah We knew how to fight But when it came to solving problems Yeah The fists would fly Not literally, but it felt that way Wtf do i even say? Now as i lay in bed Trying to Figure my life out I contemplate not even waking up at all Been trying to drink away the sadness That i feel Something i swore id never do But how else can I forget you? i produced the beat at about 2am, wrote the lyrics from 230am-440am